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Resolutions/Resignations
02:56
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spend more time alone
don't try to do so much
do your best to fossilize
don't open up too wide
don't succumb to bitterness
be polite and kind
don't try to understand
don't make judgements
let go of expectations
let go of grudges
don't let it out, don't throw a fit
take care of your own shit
and no one else's
be the witch who lives on the top of your own mountain
save your affection for the cats
write more instrumental music
make your artwork more abstract
don't try to find home
don't look back
don't fantasize
or romanticize the past
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2. |
Under The Bus
04:30
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when everyone is gathered around you
i'll be the one hanging back
when the people you know are cheering you on
i'll be the big ol drag
to let you know i'm disappointed in you
though i might be the only one to say
i see what yur doing and it fills me with dismay
cause you're growing up
and rising above
when your climbing the ladder
do you wonder, my love
who's gonna get thrown under the bus
that you're riding to success
i've been thinking it's time to let you go
as much as i've tried to stay
but you're the one who's abandoned me
in so many ways
other than acknowledging directly
that i have no place
in your life now, you'd rather keep me but just for display
keep me- keep me at arms length
but don't erase me from your list
cause then you'd have to admit
there is a real disconnection
and a vast world of differences
i've come to think there's something about me
that you don't want to see
cuz when i try speak my mind
it seems you don't truly respect me
and the path you've been choosing
goes against everything I believe
and the way you've been interacting
leaves no room for sincerity
i know you're gonna live in a real nice house
and you're gonna build your life around
you're rich husband and your biological children
and all your friends will be liberal professionals
and your vacations will be transcontinental
and you will be so polite
to the cleaning lady
you will convince yourself
that you're living so consciously
i'll be the voice to tell you
that that's nowhere near good enough
i'll be the one to point out
that your universe is corrupt
you're perpetuating patterns
we should all be trying to disrupt
if there was a way to keep you in my life
i hope you know i would do it
and if you wanted to understand
i'd do my best to explain it
but our past interactions have left me feeling so hopeless
cause my tiny little stifled voice
is no match for the current
that's sweeping you away
and washing your brain
as you think you're growing up
and you think you're rising above
when your climbing the ladder
do you ever wonder, my love
who's gonna get thrown under the bus
that you're riding to success
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3. |
Freak Incidents
03:11
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do you remember johnny peterson
the only black kid in our town
do you wonder why
his life ended in suicide?
maybe its just a coincidence
but do you wonder why
everyone around is so white?
do you think that's alright?
do you think it's only natural
all these places
with a native names
but no natives in sight
it's in the past, they say
nothing can be done anymore anyway
oh the culture in this town
is poisonous to everyone
it's unbearable to those
who couldn't fit in if they tried
do you wonder why
those white boys drove to that house in the woods
of mount vernon with a machete
murdered a woman and almost her daughter
its confusing right, cause these things don't happen here
murmurs about town blamed his mother
but maybe the problem is a little bit bigger
these atrocities happen in a vacuum they say
freak incidents
its just the freaks, it's just the freaks
don't look at me , it's just the freaks
oh the culture in this town
is poisonous to everyone
it's unbearable to those
who couldn't fit in if they tried
it's unlivable for those...
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it's true you've got a certain charm
and its true i didn't hate everything about you
but now i do, now i do
now i know how low you can go
you could win a tournament of limbo
now i know how low you can go
you're sub zero
you've got no ethics
give not one shit
got endless excuses
and too much credit
i didn't think of you for a while
i moved on with my life
but now i'm stewing in it
now i'm haunted by it
i already thought you were shit
but now for sure i know it
now i know how low you can go
you could win a tournament of limbo
now i know how low you can go
you're sub zero
you're sub zero
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Infatuation
02:55
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romanticization, infatuation
what the hell is wrong with me
why do i want you so badly?
romanticization, infatuation
what the hell is wrong with me
i don't have a clue what you're going to do with me
and i don't have a bit of trust for my instincts
but i follow them into to your room
and i don't honestly believe that i won't regret this
but i can't help but see it through
so here i am breaking my own rules
i'm self righteous and a fool
here i am breaking my own rules
i'm self righteous and a fool
romanticization, infatuation
what the hell is wrong with me
and how did you get to be so damn pretty?
how did you get to be so damn pretty?
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6. |
This Little Thing
03:34
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there’s this little thing that has been on my mind
for some amount of years, i lost track of the time
it's hardly worth mentioning
it’s just this feeling
that i’m not what people think i am
and i don’t know why no one can see me
i’m afraid it’s too late to admit
i've been lying all along
by neglecting to correct assumptions that were wrong
how cowardly of me
i wish i knew what would feel like honesty
i’ve been discovering a language for it recently
all kinds of words to try on
but it’s hard to describe an elusive identity
there are so many things that confuse me
like what makes someone a girl
and why does everyone call me that
and what sets me apart from those who wish to embrace
words that make me feel erased
maybe the main difference is that i don’t feel the same
it’s an alienation that’s hard to explain
i’ve got some little memories
that visit every day
the subtlest suggestions of what is and isn’t okay
what results in compliments
whose appearance is ignored
who gets to be noticed
and who can even hope to be adored?
who is the butt of the joke
what made the children laugh?
what was so damn funny?
i heard somebody say “it’s pat”
who would want to be like that?
i hid the pictures and grew my hair
tried to leave it in the past
until some point i realized
i had lost something that i wanted back
a clarity creeping in, only to be muted again
at times I’d try to tell a friend
but no one seemed to understand
that i wasn’t putting myself down
when i spoke of my androgyny
i didn’t think it was a shortcoming
what i meant was authenticity
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7. |
Goopy
01:21
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i catch myself
when i say your name
i know i give myself away
my inflection and tone
shamelessly show
i'm a dopey little doe
fawning over you
i'm a pile of mush
a goopy goo
a sappy soup
when i think of you
there's no hope of playing it cool
i open my mouth and i practically drool
i think you're a precious jewel
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by the way i'm not a woman
and by the way i'm not straight
and that's not something i should have to explain
cause there was no need to assume that in the first place
i'm not going to get married
and i'm not going to have a man
i'll love some men and mostly other types of people
and i've got my own beautiful plans
to live and love honestly
to do what feels right to me
there are so many sweet people in my life
so there's no need to worry
you can just be happy for me
i suspect you wouldn't feel the need to try to limit me
if you felt you had the choice to live differently
so i encourage you to change
in any way that's empowering to you
and as many times as you need to
that's what I intend to do
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Tuffy Red Minneapolis, Minnesota
Tuffy Red is the solo project of Izzy Buckner, a nonbinary Jew, MPLS transplant, guitarist, singer, and songwriter. Their songs range from sincere to snarky to sad and often delve into their emotional experiences where the personal meets the political. They are a founding member of MPLS based folk punk band Ungrateful Little String Band. ... more
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